No More Journaling? San Journals 16

Journaling

I don’t know if this journaling thing is really worth it for me, anymore. It’s starting to feel like a chore and one that I don’t want to do. To relive the last 3 years – all the pain, sadness, struggle for our whole family… I think I’m over it. Maybe I just need to lay down my journaling pen for now and focus on the present. Yah. That sounds like a good plan. Let’s look at our last five helpful posts at 6 Miles Daily and forget the … Read more…


I Am Blessed – San Journals 15

…continued from journal 14…  I am blessed. It might be difficult to see the good in all the awful that has been my life for the last 3 years. But if I didn’t try to find that good, I might lose myself in the wallowing of misery about all that has happened. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve wallowed plenty. But every day that I can get out of bed and through the day without elevated head pain along with all the rest, I am blessed. To be in … Read more…


Head Pain: 3 Years and Counting – San Journals 14

Head Pain

continued from journal 13… 3 years have passed since the first head pain. The head pain that never went away. 3 years and counting. October 8th marked three years that I’ve had a pain in my head. If I hadn’t lived through it, I never would have believed that a person could exist with head pain for more than a day or three. Even a month. Throughout this whole sickness, I’ve had other chronic pain. To be in constant pain isn’t fun for anyone. But the head pain… … Read more…


Head Pain, a Plethora of Other Ills – And Now My Weight?? – San Journals 13

…continued from journal 12… By the Summer of 2015, nothing much had really changed. I’d been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia (2014) and Diabetes (2015) along with my head pain, blurred vision, sensitivity to light, cognitive issues, and an almost 100 pound weight gain since first getting that “sinus headache” in 2013. I was on several medications, one of which had contributed significantly to my weight gain. I had fired my neurologist, which is important here because he was the one who had subscribed the med that caused me to … Read more…


A Year in Constant Pain – What?? San Journals 12

Constant Pain

…continued from journal 11… A year. In constant pain. Here we are in October 2014, a year after I woke up with a “sinus infection” and “headache” that never went away. By this time, we aren’t calling it a “headache” anymore. It’s not a migraine, either. Those are horribly painful – as anyone with chronic migraines can attest. But they usually go away after a time (hours or a day, sometimes a week…). Nope. Neither of those two things. By now, we just call this “head pain”. Oh, … Read more…


Living with 24/7 Chronic Pain – San Journals 11

…continued from journal 10… For those of you who haven’t lived for any length of time with chronic pain – it sucks. Despite my being overweight for most of my adult life (yo-yo-ing up and down so many times I’ve lost count) I was relatively healthy until October 2013. What awoke early that month was a plethora of health issues that I still struggle with, today. I actually looked for a pic to help explain the worst of it. We didn’t photograph through much of it. Obviously… This … Read more…


Our Perfect Wedding and a Recap of My Health Issues – San Journals 10

Our Perfect Wedding

…continued from journal 9… Our perfect wedding was just that. Perfect – in the moment, exactly as it should be. Oh, we hit a few road bumps along the way, including change of venue and a last minute photographer switch. But neither Gary or I could have planned it all better than it was. From the head count to our girls lending their musical talent, our written vows and best friend officiating, and everything in between, our wedding day will always be one of my most favorite days … Read more…


Between February and May – pain and happiness abound – San Journals 9

…continued from journal 8… By the end of February, we were happily engaged and I was still having pretty high head pain. A level 6 on the pain scale should not be the norm. But it became that and I learned to deal with it. I could function at a level 6. Which is scary, I know. But it was better than the off the charts pain I had been having. Putting it into perspective? I could function at a level 6. I said. And we had a … Read more…


Wedding Plans and High Head Pain – San Journals – 8

..continued from journal 7… Throughout the rest of February, my head pain was up and UP and not anything below a 6 on the pain scale. It was miserable and I rarely left my bedroom, much less my bed. I had been given a certain protocol to use when the pain really ramped up; but like some of the other meds, I did not tolerate the taking of it very well. Yes, the Migranal did seem to bring it down to that “reasonable” 6, but when taking it, … Read more…


Best Wedding Proposal EVER! – San Journals – 7

…continued from journal 6… The wedding proposal… So it’s February, I had just gotten home from a painful 3 days in hospital – but I was better. The pain had snuck back down to a reasonable 6-7 and I was lucid. Not able to talk normally, but better. And worried. Because our wedding date was fast approaching and we hadn’t told anyone. Gary hadn’t even asked me properly, yet. Now. You should note, he had a big elaborate proposal in mind. And yes, he did tell me afterward … Read more…